February 4, Saturday

jasminThe AMI QT Devotionals for February 4-5 are provided Jasmin Izumikawa.  She is a member of the Church of Southland and is currently a high school teacher. She has lived the miracle of healing through the prayers of her AMI church family through her battle with lymphoma.


I will remember my song in the night.

Psalm 77:6

4Waking up in the mornings was easy to do when I was home recovering from chemo, because I barely slept at all. Those days of silence were spent in countless sleepless hours late into the night and into the early morning. Although I was finally finished with treatments, I had little to celebrate in my heart. Sorrow had silenced me for many months. So in the days and weeks to come, I spent my sleepless nights staring at the ceiling and watching the light from passing cars sweep across my dark room until it was morning again.

I remember one early morning while I lay in bed, a song broke the silence. This wasn’t a quiet Moonlight Sonata rising with the morning sun. It was a song boldly sung by a bird outside my window. The tenacity of this bird to rehearse its long-winded aria at my dark and silent hour was striking to me. The next morning, she arrived again, breaking the silence with the same piercing tune. In that very early morning, while it was still dark, I began to envy a bird that was able to sing even in the dimness of night.

This caused me to think, Had I forgotten what the LORD has done? His healing and grace had rested on me, and yet, why could I not praise Him? Why could I not speak thankful words to Him? As I began to cry out to the LORD, I believe my true healing began.

Many times, when we find ourselves trapped in our fears and doubt, we begin to question God’s love and acceptance for us. Remember that even in your darkest hours, God is boldly rich in love for you. His heart aims to serenade you at times when there is pain and loneliness. Be comforted and remember your song in the night.

I will remember my song in the night;

I will meditate with my heart

I will meditate on all Your work

And muse on Your deeds.

Your way, O God, is holy;

What god is great like our God?

(Ps. 77:6, 12-3)

Prayer: LORD, thank You for the gift of life and for meeting me in my darkest hours. Heal my heart and strengthen me. You humble my heart with Your loving kindness; how could I keep my joy silent? I want to draw nearer to You and rest in Your loving arms. Amen.

Bible Reading for Today: Judges 13-14

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