May 1, Tuesday

Devotional Thoughts for Today

“A Shattered Reputation”

Mark 15:1-15

Very early in the morning, the chief priests, with the elders, the teachers of the law and the whole Sanhedrin, made their plans. So they bound Jesus, led him away and handed him over to Pilate. “Are you the king of the Jews?” asked Pilate. “You have said so,” Jesus replied. The chief priests accused him of many things. So again Pilate asked him, “Aren’t you going to answer? See how many things they are accusing you of.” But Jesus still made no reply, and Pilate was amazed. Now it was the custom at the festival to release a prisoner whom the people requested. A man called Barabbas was in prison with the insurrectionists who had committed murder in the uprising. The crowd came up and asked Pilate to do for them what he usually did. “Do you want me to release to you the king of the Jews?” asked Pilate, 10 knowing it was out of self-interest that the chief priests had handed Jesus over to him. 11 But the chief priests stirred up the crowd to have Pilate release Barabbas instead. 12 “What shall I do, then, with the one you call the king of the Jews?” Pilate asked them. 13 “Crucify him!” they shouted. 14 “Why? What crime has he committed?” asked Pilate. But they shouted all the louder, “Crucify him!” 15 Wanting to satisfy the crowd, Pilate released Barabbas to them. He had Jesus flogged, and handed him over to be crucified.

After having worked for a financial corporation in New York City for several years, I have learned that a common theme running through today’s corporate culture is branding. Whether it’s the status of our company or our personal reputation, managing our standing is given high priority. Thus, we meticulously display our best selves on our resumes and social media, and minimize our weaknesses by terming them “areas of improvement.” And if any false accusations are leveled against us—whether through gossip or hearsay—we act quickly to dispel those rumors to maintain our reputation.

In contrast, today’s reading displays Jesus, the only perfect man to have walked this earth, staying silent (v.5) despite being falsely accused (v. 3). Even an outsider like Pilate was able to discern that the ill treatment towards Jesus was based on envy as opposed to justice (v. 10). And when Pilate asked the crowd what wrong Jesus had committed (v.14), there was no response to his question, only further cries to “crucify him” (v.15). Why did Jesus accept such vile treatment?

One possibility is that Jesus knew His mission from the Father and only lived to do His will (John 4:34). Luke notes that “when the days drew near for him [Jesus] to be taken up, he set his face to go to Jerusalem.” Like a solider, Jesus did not entangle Himself in civilian pursuits but only aimed to please God (2 Tim. 2:4). Knowing that fulfilling His Father’s mission involved being despised by others (Isa. 53:3), Jesus endured the abuse and completed His task. The irony of it all is that He will eventually be praised by all men (Phil. 2:9-11).

As believers today, are we getting involved in the wrong battles? Are we diverting precious time and effort from kingdom work by curating our reputations? When we hear something about ourselves that we may not like, perhaps deeper understanding and reconciliation can be achieved by trying to understand, instead of instantly defending ourselves. And even if such words about us are wholly false, let us take comfort that He who knew no sin (2 Cor. 5:21) was not immune to such attacks. Let us ask Him for His strength today.

Prayer: Lord, I confess that I care too much about what others think or say about me. I confess that I spend time putting out these fires, instead of resting in the righteousness that You have given me. Give me the wisdom to discern when to speak and when to be silent. And thank You that in Your eyes, I am fully righteous because of the work of Christ. In Your Name I pray, Amen.

Bible Reading for Today: 2 Timothy 2


Lunch Break Study

Read Isaiah 50:5-9: “The Sovereign Lord has opened my ears; I have not been rebellious, I have not turned away. 6 I offered my back to those who beat me, my cheeks to those who pulled out my beard; I did not hide my face from mocking and spitting. 7 Because the Sovereign Lord helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore I have set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame. 8 He who vindicates me is near. Who then will bring charges against me? Let us face each other! Who is my accuser? Let him confront me! 9 It is the Sovereign Lord who helps me. Who will condemn me? They will all wear out like a garment; the moths will eat them up.”

Questions to Consider

  1. How does Jesus resemble the Suffering Servant in this passage?
  2. Why does the Suffering Servant have such boldness and confidence in verses 8-9?
  3. Do you have such trust and confidence in God?

Note

  1. Jesus did not turn away from His accusers (v.5-6). He took comfort that God the Father would keep Him from disgrace and set His face like a flint to carry out God’s will (v.7).
  2. He has tremendous trust in the Lord, who vindicates Him (v.8) and helps Him (v.9). As Christians, we, too, can have the same confidence that it is the work of Christ, not our own actions that justify us.
  3. Personal response.

Evening Reflection

Unlike Jesus, we are not perfect people. Even the harshest of criticism or slander may have a sliver of truth. If you have been the recipient of some choice words, ask God for His help to discern what may actually be helpful.

April 30, Monday

The AMI QT Devotionals from April 30-May 6 are provided by Jabez Yeo.  Jabez, an alumnus of University of Pennsylvania, just graduated from Columbia International University with a M.A. in Muslim Studies. He is currently working in NYC and serving at Remnant Church-E.  He hopes to become a missionary.

 

Devotional Thoughts for Today

The Savior Who Understands (Overview Mark 15-16)

Hebrews 4:15

“We do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin.”

One of the strongest ethos of Western society is the self-made person. We are trained to think that if we just work hard, educate ourselves and persevere, we will overcome any obstacles and achieve success. I, of course, am no exception. Yet, many of us live unaware of how our decisions are undoubtedly influenced by others. The explicit or subliminal messages you received from those who have gone before you in your family, church, school or workplace affect the “big-picture” decisions in your relationships, ministries, education and career. Even the most trivial of choices, such as where to eat or what movie to watch, can be made through consulting reviewers on Yelp or Rotten Tomatoes.  As human beings, we innately trust someone who has been where we want to go.

Thus, one of the most beautiful doctrines of the Christian faith is the truth of the incarnation. The reality of God in man, the Word became flesh (John 1:14), implies that the troubles we have overcome, experience daily or will eventually face, are not lost upon our Savior. Today, some of us may be enduring a season of physical pain or chronic disabilities that have inhibited us for much of life. Or maybe you are going through the pain of betrayal or the despair of loneliness. As Hebrews 4:15 notes, “we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin”. Therefore, the full range of human experience was available to Jesus and He empathizes with our current situations by providing His mercy and grace.

For the remainder of this week, we will be exploring how Jesus endured the pain of slander, physical torture and abandonment on the road to the cross. My prayer is that through this week, we would more fully believe that no matter what we are going through, Jesus can meet us there. For those of us who seek someone to simply say “I understand,” may we find our comfort in the only person who can claim that for all humanity.

Prayer: Jesus, thank You that You humbled yourself by taking the nature of a servant, becoming God in man. Thank You that You are familiar with the troubles of this world, including those I face today. Help me to find strength and take heart in You, for You have overcome the world. In Your Name I pray, Amen.

Bible Reading for Today: 2 Timothy 1


Lunch Break Study

Read Hebrews 4:14-16: “Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. 15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. 16 Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”

Questions to Consider

  1. How is Jesus able to empathize with our weaknesses?
  2. How does this fact allow us to approach his throne of grace with confidence?
  3. What specifically do you need to approach the throne of grace for?

Note

  1. Jesus lived a full human life during his time on earth. He experienced the reality of the human flesh through hunger, fatigue and physical pain. He involved himself in relationships with his family, friends and disciples and experienced the highs and lows of such bonds.
  2. Jesus experienced all these things but yet was not found with sin. We can be confident in approaching Him because, first, he will not be unsympathetic when we share our burdens with Him, and second, through Him, we have the power to overcome such obstacles.
  3. Personal response

 Evening Reflection

How was Jesus able to meet you today? Spend time thanking Him for providing what you needed when you needed. If you didn’t feel His presence today, ask that He would provide greater awareness and sensitivity.

April 29, Sunday

Today’s AMI QT Devotionals is provided by Jon Moon, who serves as Children’s Ministry Director at Radiance Christian Church in San Francisco.

 

Devotional Thoughts for Today

Romans 8:26-27 (NIV)

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans .27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God

I remember the first time when someone came up to me and asked me to pray over him, not giving me anything specific to pray for. I recall getting nervous, thinking about what I would pray for and how I would pray for this person: How can I make my prayer sound good? What can I say to make it sound like I’m praying a good prayer over this person? You see, somehow I grew to think that ministering over someone through prayer—not just praying for someone’s prayer requests—and letting the Spirit speak was something that only seasoned pastors, really mature Christians, or those who could speak in tongues could do. I believed that I wasn’t good enough to pray over people—especially those who were older or more spiritually mature than I was.

During my trip to Cuba last year, during one of the ministry times that we had after ending one of the classes, Dr. Ryun asked me to go around and pray over people. I felt unworthy or not spiritual enough to pray over pastors or those who I felt were way more spiritually mature than I was. So I just stood there and prayed a general prayer over others. This year, the same thing happened: Dr. Ryun asked me to pray over the seminarians, and once again, I stayed in my little corner and prayed over them. A couple nights later, though, I was able to really experience the Holy Spirit speaking through me as I prayed over the seminarians to close one of our sessions. I felt this deep passion and fire inside of me, and the words were just flowing out of my mouth—it was an incredible experience!

As wonderful as that experience was, though, I felt like that was a one-time deal, and it wouldn’t happen again. But when our church was preparing to host its first Encounter Retreat, the staff was told that we would be praying over people during ministry time; once again, I wanted to shy away from this responsibility. But as I continued to prepare and pray over the retreat, the Spirit convicted me and reminded me that He was the one who ministered to people—not the fancy words that I needed to formulate to make my prayer sound holy. I was convicted of how prideful I was in thinking that it was my prayer that was ministering to people, and not the Holy Spirit who was doing the work. As the verse reminds us, the Spirit is the one who does the interceding over God’s people, since the Spirit understands the heart and mind of the person more than we can possibly understand.

As I realized this, I felt a big burden being lifted off my shoulders—a burden that I had placed upon myself. I no longer feel like I have to think hard or worry about what I would say when praying over people, but that I just need to pray for them and allow the Spirit to do the rest. In the Scriptures, we are told to pray and intercede for one another. As you do, don’t let fear or insecurity stop you from ministering to others through your prayers, but remember that it is the Holy Spirit’s job to minister to the person, and you have the privilege of being used by the Spirit to bless that person!

Prayer: Father, thank You for giving me the privilege to intercede and pray for others. Thank You that even though I am a weak and an imperfect being, You have given me Your Spirit to help me to pray for others. Use me as an instrument of blessing as I continue to minister to others through my prayers in the power of your Holy Spirit. Amen.

Bible Reading for Today: Jude 1

April 28, Saturday

Today’s AMI Quiet Time Devotional is written by Pastor Ryun.

Devotional Thoughts for Today

“The Meaning of Raising Three Little Munchkins” (Part 2)

Mark 9:21-2

“Jesus asked the boy’s father, ‘How long has he been like this?’ ‘From the childhood,’ he answered. ‘It has often thrown him into fire or water to kill him. But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us.'”

As I was reading a blog that I wrote in 1998, I don’t really remember what led to writing this at that time: “The other day my wife confessed that raising three kids has changed her personality for the worst. Why? Well, when you have to yell as often as my wife and I do to prevent my young ones from hurting themselves, not to mention breaking up ‘fights’ between them, you would become a Dr. Jekyll and Hyde too.”

Then there is this aspect of parenting that really is a bummer: you no longer have a life of your own but it’s is dictated by your kids; or rather, their school—more specifically, all that the school asks the students to do at home with the parents. I was so relieved the other day after finding this out. Earlier this year, Christy had to do a special project for her second-grade animal book project. For that, she had to cut out the pictures of at least two animals in six categories and also write something about each of them. I had to help her and it was a lot of work—especially the writing part. So when I was told that her third grade teacher also wanted to do an animal project, but this time five animals in each of six categories, I was genuinely feeling anxious. But, oh, what a relief it was when Christy told me that the writing part is done in the class! This meant that all I had to do is help her find the right pictures and cut them! The pressure is definitely off!

So is this all worth it: constant doubting about your judgment and ability to properly discipline your kids, changing personality, and a significant loss of your personal space? Of course it is, otherwise, we would have put these munchkins up for adoption by now.

So what makes it worthwhile? It’s the joy of seeing them forgive and care for each other; seeing their awareness of God increase by leaps and bound each day; the joy of hearing their kind words of appreciation for us; the relief and thrill of finishing the project together; and to sit around and having family devotions, which always seems to turn into something else in the end—yes, it is all worth it.

Lastly, I find that there is nothing quite like parents’ concern for their children that drives them to Christ. Why? It is because you feel so helpless as parents, much like how the father, whose son was afflicted by an evil spirit, felt; so, as this father did, you go to Christ and plead for mercy for your children’s soul. I just wish that when my kids read Proverbs 17:6b (“Children’s children are a crown to the aged, and parents are the pride of their children”), they will say, “Yes, that’s my parent.” I wish that when the Lord reviews my life, He will say, “Good job ‘bring[ing] them up in the training and instruction of the Lord’” (Eph. 6:4b).

Bible Reading for Today: 1 Timothy 6 & Philemon 1

April 27, Friday

Today’s AMI Quiet Time Devotional is written by Pastor Ryun.

 

Devotional Thoughts for Today

“The Meaning of Raising Three Little Munchkins” (Part 1)

 1 John 4:20-21

If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything. 21 Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God.

Note: Today’s devotional is an updated version of what I first wrote in 1998 when my children were eight, five, and one years of age.

As all parents already know, raising children is very hard work. That could be one reason some folks opt to not have any kids. One aspect to raising children—that is a real stinker (for me, at least)—is the constant feeling of guilt. An undeniable truth is that children do many things wrong. Just the other day, I told Joshua that if he does to another person what he did to his sister when he is grown up, he might end up in jail. (Now, some 20 years later I have no clue as to what Joshua did; therefore, I am thinking, If it was that serious of an offense, how come I don’t remember any of it? Maybe I over reacted.) Only a few days earlier his sister got an earful from me for saying mean things to Joshua. (Again, I don’t remember what she said.) In both cases, they got disciplined pretty severely! But afterwards, I wasn’t sure whether I went about it the right way in terms of the severity of the discipline. Then I heard Ephesians 6:4a echoing in my ear: “Fathers, do not exasperate your children.” I couldn’t help but wonder whether I did that.

Then there are times when I mercifully let go of bad things they did, and then wonder whether I should have disciplined them for it. In such times, I hear Proverbs 13:24 echoing in my ears: “He who spares the rod hates his son, but he who loves him is careful to discipline him.” Then I began to wonder whether my children will now grow up to be criminals or something, all because of my misguided act of mercy.

Well, this is 2018 now and my kids aren’t children anymore. How are they doing? There isn’t anything definite to report, since their lives continue to unfold in their twenties. But one thing I have learned thus far: We don’t have to be perfect parents for our children to do reasonably well with their lives. That is to say, it is not entirely up to us—it is up to God! If not, how do you explain Jonathan, an uprights son who stood by his unprincipled and unreasonable father Saul until death.

I would like to believe that many of my worries over my children then were an overreaction that came from not realizing that God can overcome my mistakes as parents. Perhaps I should have shown mercy instead of disciplining them, or vice versa, but God knew my heart. “We [can] set our hearts at rest in his presence whenever our hearts condemn us [because] God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything” (1 John 3:20), including that I loved them and continue to love them.

Parents, before figuring out what to do between discipline and having mercy, love them first.

Prayer: Dear Lord, as You love us conditionally, help us to love our children unconditionally. Help us to love them for who they are, not because they can do things that makes us feel proud of our ability to parent. Father, please remove such delusion from us so that we can humbly ask You to help us to raise your children given to us for a time. Amen.

Bible Reading for Today: 1 Timothy 5 


Lunch Break Study

Read 1 Samuel 20:30-34a, 31:1-2: Saul’s anger flared up at Jonathan and he said to him, “You son of a perverse and rebellious woman! Don’t I know that you have sided with the son of Jesse to your own shame and to the shame of the mother who bore you? 31 As long as the son of Jesse lives on this earth, neither you nor your kingdom will be established. Now send someone to bring him to me, for he must die!” 32 “Why should he be put to death? What has he done?” Jonathan asked his father. 33 But Saul hurled his spear at him to kill him. Then Jonathan knew that his father intended to kill David. 34 Jonathan got up from the table in fierce anger . . . 31:1 Now the Philistines fought against Israel; the Israelites fled before them, and many fell dead on Mount Gilboa. The Philistines were in hot pursuit of Saul and his sons, and they killed his sons Jonathan, Abinadab and Malki-Shua.

Questions to Consider

  1. Based on Jonathan’s exchange with his father Saul, how would you characterize Jonathan and Saul, respectively?
  2. How did Jonathan show his love and loyalty to his father?
  3. What does this say about parenting? Do parents hold all the cards in ensuring that our kids turn out perfectly? (For reference read Ezekiel 18:1-24).

Note

  1. Jonathan was a selfless man who, once recognizing God’s will that David—not him— was to succeed the throne, did all he could to defend his friend at the cost of his own life. On the other hand, Saul, wanting to keep the throne in the family, did everything to oppose God’s will, including trying to kill his own son (an irony, indeed) and later David.
  2. Jonathan, having left his father in righteous anger, returned to his father to fight along with him in what turned out to be their final battle. You and I know that many of us wouldn’t have done that. We have heard cases where adult children don’t call their parents forever after a big fight that happened years ago.
  3. Of course, parents are responsible to do their part in raising them in accordance to biblical ways (Eph. 6:4; Prov. 22:6), but they don’t control all the factors. Therefore, they shouldn’t get too much credit if their children turned out godly, and they shouldn’t get too much blame if their children turned out to be like Prophet Samuel’s sons, who “did not walk in his ways. They turned aside after dishonest gain and accepted bribes and perverted justice” (1 Sam. 8:3).

Evening Reflection

This is for parents and future parents. Proverbs 22:6 says, “Start children off on the way they should go, and even when they are old they will not turn from it.” What’s the first thing that comes to your mind with respect what you want your child to model after? Going to church Sundays? That’s good. Not using profanity? Okay. How about apologizing to people (including your spouse and children) after making a mistake? How about being humble, loving and kind? There’s so much to pray about—pray for your child before going to sleep. Pray that you will be that humble and kind person your child wants to emulate (much like Timothy imitated the sincere faith of his mother Eunice).

April 26, Thursday

The AMI QT Devotionals for April 26-27 are provided by Jon Moon, who serves as Children’s Ministry Director at Radiance Christian Church in San Francisco. Jon, currently a student at Fuller Theological Seminary, is married to Stephanie, and they have one son (Elijah) and another one on the way.

Devotional Thoughts for Today 

Romans 15:4

For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through the endurance taught in the Scriptures and the encouragement they provide we might have hope.

This past March, I had the privilege of, once again, accompanying Dr. Ryun to Cuba to teach at Seminario de La Gracia. During this trip, as I witnessed how the seminary students lived out their lives and how fervently they studied God’s Word, I was reminded once again of the importance of reading and studying the Word of God. In a country where people survive on one or two meals a day, since resources are scarce, and hopes for a better life are almost nonexistent, I was amazed at the joy and hope that these 78 seminarians expressed through their singing, prayers, and study of the Word.

Where did this hope and joy amid trials and tribulation come from? I believe, as Romans 15:4 states, it comes in part from the constant study of God’s Word and remembering what the Lord has done for us throughout history and the promises that He has given us. So often, when we go through hard times, we forget this and get so focused on our situation or on the wrong things that we begin to get anxious, desperate, and start losing hope.

Instead, when life gets hard and we are losing hope, let’s turn to God’s Word and be reminded of what the Lord has done and is able to do. Let’s be reminded of His attributes and His names. Let’s be reminded of James’ exhortation to persevere and endure so that we may one day receive the crown of Life. Let’s lean on His promises and be encouraged by the reassuring words that He has for us, and that He will never leave us nor forsake us.

Prayer: Father, thank You for giving us Your Word so that we would be reminded daily of who You are and all that You’ve done for us. Forgive us for often forgetting this and allowing fear, worry, and anxiety to rule over our hearts, instead of Your peace and hope. Continue to remind us of how great and awesome You are, and may your Word continue to minister and encourage us through our struggles. Thank You for loving us and promising to never leave nor forsake us. Amen.

Bible Reading for Today: 1 Timothy 4 


Lunch Break Study (Pastor Ryun)     

Read 2 Corinthians 4:7-10, 16-18: But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. 8 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body . . . Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 

Questions to Consider

  1. Can you identify with the type of Christian faith that Paul embodied while he was serving the Lord?
  2. Why is American Christianity so different from what Paul says here?
  3. If you were to live like the apostle, what is the only way that will keep you going while serving the Lord on earth, despite the suffering and hardship? 

Notes

  1. Most of us can’t identify with Paul because we don’t live like him. How did he live? He gave up the comforts of life to serve God despite great oppositions. He refers to this as “carrying around in our body the death of Christ.”
  2. The basic orientation of American Christianity is narcissism—It’s all about what can God do for me, to make my life more comfortable and materially prosperous, and to feel more fulfilled. It fixes its eyes on what is seen—jars of gold, not clay.
  3. Since life on earth is not as comfortable and prosperous as it can be due to our choice to follow God and His call in our lives, we must fix our eyes on what is unseen and what is eternal to remember that something better is waiting for us in heaven—an eternal glory.         

Evening Reflection

Habakkuk 3:17-18 speaks of having hope in God amid circumstances and situations that couldn’t get any worse.  As you wrap up this day, meditate on this amazing Scriptures, and embrace the life of fixing our eyes on what is unseen and eternal.

Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, 18 yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior.

April 25, Wednesday

The AMI QT Devotionals for April 23-25 are provided by Myra Huang. Myra, a graduate of Juilliard School (BA) and The Manhattan School of Music (M.A.), lives in NYC with her husband Ed Huang and two lovely daughters: Elie (9) and Abby (7). She has been a member of The Remnant Church since its inception in 1995. Myra travels the world performing concerts with opera singers.

Devotional Thoughts for Today

2 Corinthians 3:18

“And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.”

In yesterday’s blog, I mentioned that my last album with my colleague Nick was nominated for a Grammy Award in the “Best Classical Vocal Solo” category (2017).

Well, in the end, we did not win our Grammy category.  I had butterflies in my stomach as they reached the few categories right before ours, as I knew they would be announcing ours soon.  I truly did not expect to win, but the greatest gift I had received from the Lord was that He had released me from the fear of losing a few weeks before (see previous blog).  After encountering God’s healing, I was able to look back at moments when He closed doors for me and understand His pacing and His timing.  One thing I have learned deeply about His wise and loving leading is that His timing truly is perfect.  I had experienced so much consistency in God’s faithfulness in my career that I knew that I did not “need” this Grammy to have a great career.  The peace of God in such a moment of great expectation and the freedom to lose was the greatest gift the Lord could have ever given me.  I felt so loved—and still feel so loved—that He sought me out to give me this kind of freedom before my big moment.

I never became a classical pianist “for God’s glory.”  Many people attach that phrase to whatever they do as an afterthought.  I pursued my career because I didn’t know what else to do; it was what God had put in front of me, and I just followed Him step by step.  What I have learned is that we give God glory in whatever we do, by being transformed into His likeness and loving those around us.  It’s not the career that glorifies God—it’s who you are in Christ that glorifies Him and your relationship with Him.  Before I step out on stage at every concert, I spend time reminding myself that the concert I am about to give is my worship to God.  I remind myself that I am performing for the audience of One.

My final thought about the Grammy’s is … let the Lord’s will be done!  If He wants me to have a Grammy one day, that’s great; if not, that’s great too.  Because I don’t need a Grammy to have a successful career.  My goal is not to win, but to know the love of my Lord and to follow Him wherever He leads me.

Prayer: Lord, there are things, not only in my personal life but for Your greater kingdom purposes, that need to get done. But, before letting me see what I need to do, allow me to see and then constantly remind me who I need to be in Christ.  Amen.

Bible Reading for Today: 1 Timothy 3


Lunch Break Study (Pastor Ryun)

Read 2 Timothy 4:16-8: “At my first defense, no one came to my support, but everyone deserted me. May it not be held against them. 17 But the Lord stood at my side and gave me strength, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. And I was delivered from the lion’s mouth. 18 The Lord will rescue me from every evil attack and will bring me safely to his heavenly kingdom. To him be glory for ever and ever. Amen.”

Questions to Consider

  1. At first glance, this passage may not seem to correspond to this morning’s devotion, but actually it does, because both deal with being constantly aware of the true reality as opposed to operating out of a false reality. Myra saw herself as a winner in Christ even though she didn’t actually win the Grammy, and this realization was already internalized before the winner of the award was announced. In the case of Paul, what did he already internalize long before whether anyone ever came to visit him in Rome?
  2. In what sense are the experiences of Myra and Paul similar?
  3. The kind of self-realization we are talking about here does require one thing: self-awareness of what truly drives and motivates us. Is it winning (even if it is for Christ) or being like Him—that is, being transformed by the Spirit to embody the likeness of Christ? Take a moment to reflect on this matter that we often ignore.

Notes

  1. Before anyone were to visit Paul in prison to show their care and concern for him, the apostle already felt sufficiently cared for because he was acutely aware of the Lord’s protective presence in his life.
  2. Their experiences are similar in the sense that they prioritized the presence of One in order to deal with their respective struggles. For Paul, the struggle was dealing with the sense that no one supported him, despite all that he had done for them; for Myra, the struggle was dealing with the sense that she is “only as good as your last performance.”
  3. Personal response. It bears repeating what Myra said: “It’s not the career that glorifies God—it’s who you are in Christ that glorifies Him and your relationship with Him.”     

Evening Reflection

In reviewing this day, was it a struggle to keep your head high (not in arrogance but in admiration of our gracious God) because things just didn’t turn out the way you planned?  In recognizing our shortcomings, how is the Lord using that to transform you? Perhaps James 4:6 may be helpful here: “But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: ‘God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.’”

April 24, Tuesday

The AMI QT Devotionals for April 23-25 are provided by Myra Huang. Myra, a graduate of Juilliard School (BA) and The Manhattan School of Music (M.A.), lives in NYC with her husband Ed Huang and two lovely daughters: Elie (9) and Abby (7). She has been a member of The Remnant Church since its inception in 1995. Myra travels the world performing concerts with opera singers.

Devotional Thoughts for Today

James 1:17-8 (NLT)

“Whatever is good and perfect is a gift coming down to us from God our Father, who created all the lights in the heavens.  He never changes or casts a shifting shadow.  He chose to give birth to us by giving us his true word.  And we, out of all creation, became his prized possession.”

Last November, I found out that my last album with my colleague Nick was nominated for a Grammy Award in the “Best Classical Vocal Solo” category.  I am a classical pianist, and I concertize and record albums with opera singers.

When I was young, I grew up winning every competition I ever entered and being the star pianist in my hometown.  However, around the time of college, for the first time, I wasn’t winning everything and doors were closing on me.  I thought to myself, Ah, now that I’m growing as a Christian, God must want to humble me, so He doesn’t want me to win anymore.  So when this Grammy nomination presented itself, I thought, How lovely!  But God probably doesn’t want me to become arrogant, so we probably won’t win.

I spent a few weeks losing sleep because of my anxiety about losing—I knew it was going to hurt.  But then one day, a couple weeks before the actual Grammys Award Ceremony, God met me during worship.  He simply said, “You are not a loser.”  Those words, coming directly from the Lord of my life, exposed that I had almost made a career of learning to be humbled by God.  I thought He would never entrust winning to me again because it was my lot in my life to be humbled.  But with the words “You are not a loser,” I understood in an instant with beautiful clarity that behind God’s sovereign directing of my life was His deep, vast, all-encompassing love.

Yes, He wanted to work in me so that I would not base my identity on winning or success … because He LOVED me.  He loved me so much that He wanted to give me a security not based on such fleeting things.  God’s timing was so loving to heal me right before the Grammys, so that I could actually enjoy the moment rather than fearing losing.  Also for the first time, I was able to begin imagining all the good things that the Lord had in store for me, rather than just the slice of plain bread I would be rationed every day to survive.  I was able to grasp how lavish was the love my God had for me, and hope began to flood my thoughts as I thought about the future.  I was transformed from a servant who was allowed to be in God’s family, to a prized daughter who was dressed with her Father’s favor.

So, remember that you are a winner in God’s eyes, apart from anything you do or fail to do, and live a stress and anxiety free day today.

Prayer: Jesus, thank You for Your death and resurrection. The hope of eternal life with You gives meaning to my existence, apart from anything I do or fail to do, and brings joy to the things that I get to do here on earth. Help me to live in light of the joy of eternal life today. Amen.

Bible Reading for Today: 1 Timothy 2


Lunch Break Study (Pastor Ryun)

Read Luke 19:1-6 (NIV): “Jesus entered Jericho and was passing through. 2 A man was there by the name of Zacchaeus; he was a chief tax collector and was wealthy. 3 He wanted to see who Jesus was, but because he was short he could not see over the crowd. 4 So he ran ahead and climbed a sycamore-fig tree to see him, since Jesus was coming that way. 5 When Jesus reached the spot, he looked up and said to him, “Zacchaeus, come down immediately. I must stay at your house today.” 6 So he came down at once and welcomed him gladly. 7 All the people saw this and began to mutter, “He has gone to be the guest of a sinner.” 8 But Zacchaeus stood up and said to the Lord, “Look, Lord! Here and now I give half of my possessions to the poor, and if I have cheated anybody out of anything, I will pay back four times the amount.” 9 Jesus said to him, “Today salvation has come to this house, because this man, too, is a son of Abraham. 10 For the Son of Man came to seek and to save the lost.”

Questions to Consider

  1. Given the category of being a winner or a loser, where would the Israelites place Zacchaeus and why?
  2. Where would Jesus place Zacchaeus in this category? Winner or loser? Why do you think so?
  3. Are you a winner or a loser in God’s eyes? Justify your choice.

Notes

  1. The Israelites considered Zacchaeus a profound loser for using performance enhancing drugs (something illegal) to get ahead in his career (“chief tax collector”): he betrayed his people by working for the Romans, and he cheated and lied to collect more than what was required to pocket the excess.
  2. Jesus would consider Zacchaeus a profound winner, because he recognized that no title or money could satisfy his sense of inadequacy and emptiness, so he sought Jesus—even though he must have looked like a fool climbing a tree to see Jesus. Anyone who seeks Jesus and His approval above all else is a winner.
  3. Personal response. Quiet your soul and allow the Holy Spirit to speak to your heart (Rom. 8:16).

Evening Reflection

This morning, the issue was how God ministers to us personally and intimately.  Without being ministered that way, we cannot hear anything from the Lord. God may very well be saying, “You are not a loser,” but what good is it if we aren’t hearing it. So try this before going to sleep tonight and allow yourself to hear God’s voice through the Spirt in your heart: “Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him” (Ps 37:7a).

April 23, Monday

The AMI QT Devotionals for April 23-25 are provided by Myra Huang. Myra, a graduate of Juilliard School (BA) and The Manhattan School of Music (M.A.), lives in NYC with her husband Ed Huang and two lovely daughters: Elie (9) and Abby (7). She has been a member of The Remnant Church since its inception in 1995. Myra travels the world performing concerts with opera singers.

Devotional Thoughts for Today

“Fear”

Ephesians 3:16-19 (NIV)

“I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.  And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”

There are so many things we all fear: fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of loneliness, fear of uselessness, fear of not being smart.  In my mind, so many of our fears point to one underlying predominant fear:  the fear of not being loved.

I started piano at the age of 4, and my older brother started cello at the age of 6.  We were star prodigies in our small town of Portland, Oregon.  I won almost every competition I entered.  You can understand how my identity became cemented in winning—or at least in being successful. My parents had a very violent and tumultuous marriage, ending up with the police at our home a few times a year; but the one thing that brought them happiness was when I did well.  So I learned at an early age that if I did well, it would make my parents happy, and I would receive love.  My performance became my currency to obtain love.

As a concert pianist, I am constantly struggling with the performance mentality.  There’s a phrase in the business: “You’re only as good as your last performance.”  That’s a lot of pressure to live up to.  I have had to spend so much time in prayer surrendering my need to succeed, and to ask God to exchange my anxiety from fear of failure with the peace of knowing that I am loved just as I am.  Living with such anxiety is exhausting, and eventually leads to burn out.  I’m sure many of you can relate.

I am learning how to tend to my identity in Christ.  I’m learning how to make a habit of sitting before God doing nothing but resting in knowing that He loves me.  When I’m busy, I’m learning to release the tension of trying to prove my worth, and to rather lean on His presence and faithfulness.  Much of my prayer life has changed as well.  I spend more time in silence, just being with God and listening, rather than making my supplications. I am meditating on God’s love for me, not because of what I have done, but because He chose me and created me.  The fruit that is born of the Spirit becomes joy and peace.  Only then am I able to understand how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, so that I may live in step with the fullness of His presence.

So, today, I invite you to a time alone with God, to contemplate on all the marvelous things He has done and continues to do to show His unconditional acceptance of us.

Prayer: Father, thank you for times of solitude, for times of slowing down, and for a life that is something more than just merely performing.  Thank You for times to build into myself and the lives of others around me.  Help me to spend this precious time wisely and well. Amen.

Bible Reading for Today: 1 Timothy 1


Lunch Break Study (Pastor Ryun)

Read Romans 15:7: “Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God; Luke 15:20: But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.”

Questions to Consider

  1. Based on how the father treated the prodigal son, what does it mean that Christ has accepted us?
  2. What is implied in the statement, “Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you”?
  3. Are you struggling with this issue? Is people’s approval of your performance very important to you? Identify one or two areas where you feel the most pressure to perform, and then write out a prayer to the Lord to surrender those areas to Him.

Notes

  1. The son had been clearly in the wrong, but his contrition or repentance was not a precondition for the father to have compassion for him and showering him with mercy (withholding the punishment he deserves).
  2. The premise of the command for us to accept one another unconditionally is precisely because we do the opposite, meaning we treat people well when they perform (e.g., performance bonus) and not so well when they don’t. Let’s be careful to avoid doing this, especially if we are parents of small children—because they catch on fast.
  3. Personal response.

Evening Reflection

During the business of this day, did I stop to ponder and experience God’s approval of me today, simply because I am beloved in Christ?  Have I made time for resting in Him apart from any merit on my part?  Spend some time reflecting on these matters and ask God for strength to feel less pressure to perform.

April 22, Sunday

Devotional Thoughts for Today

Mark 12:38-40

And in his teaching he said, “Beware of the scribes, who like to walk around in long robes and like greetings in the marketplaces 39 and have the best seats in the synagogues and the places of honor at feasts, 40 who devour widows’ houses and for a pretense make long prayers. They will receive the greater condemnation.”

I remember going bouldering for the first time with a group of friends. It was fun learning the basics and trying to figure out how to climb the different parts of the wall. As we were resting, my friends shared funny stories of experienced climbers who loved to show off their skills by climbing the part of the wall that others failed to do. It would be in such a way to make sure everyone saw that they could do something no one else could. For them, it was not enough to be good at something; they had to make sure others recognized their abilities.  It was not enough to climb the wall, but they had to look good doing it for others.

We find something similar in this passage. Jesus condemns the type of religiosity that the scribes practiced. It was not really about God and loving people, but they used their piety to draw attention to themselves. They seemed godly but there was no actual substance of godly character. They prayed long prayers to show off their knowledge and oratory abilities. They took the best seats during meals and in the synagogues and walked around in long robes in order to be seen. Jesus did not approve of such practice of flashy religion—He rightfully condemns it.

The temptation to be ostentatious about our relationship with God and religious practice still exists today. Many of us use ministry and the church to draw attention to ourselves—we desire positions of leadership to feel important and superior to others. In other words, we can have ungodly intentions that are fulfilled and masked with ministry. It happens all the time. And for this reason, we have to remain vigilant about our motivations. We must intentionally remain tethered to God and abide in Christ as we do ministry. Without intimacy with God, ministry can often devolve into something ungodly. In prayer, come before God and ask Him to help you to minister and live out your calling with the right motivations and with much humility.

Prayer: Father, I want to confess that my desires and motivations are often a mixed bag, even when it comes to ministry and service in the church. Purify my heart and help me to serve with pure intentions and motives.  Amen.

Bible Reading for Today: 2 Thessalonians 3