REPOST Today’s AMI Devotional Quiet Time, provided by Christine Li, was first posted on October 12, 2014. Christine, a graduate of University of Pennsylvania, serves as a deaconess at Remnant Church in Manhattan, New York. Congratulations to Christine for her recent nuptial.
Spiritual Food for Thought for the Weekend
Psalm 77:5b –12
“My heart meditated and my spirit asked:
‘Will the Lord reject forever?
Will he never show his favor again?
Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
Has his promise failed for all time?
Has God forgotten to be merciful?
Has he in anger withheld his compassion?’
Then I thought, ‘To this I will appeal:
the years when the Most High stretched out his right hand.
I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.
I will consider all your works
and meditate on all your mighty deeds.’”
One problem that I struggled with for a long time was the idea that God was in the business of forgetting me. I began to notice all my friends excelling in areas that I was diligently working at (seemingly in vain). I saw the people I wanted to deeply invest into instead gravitating towards others and asking for their company instead. All the things I was asking for, I saw other people receiving plentifully!
While I knew of God’s generosity and knew that I had experienced much of it in my own life, the disappointments and hurts slowly began to gnaw at me until I allowed myself to believe that my job on earth was being passed over by the LORD. I did not think that God was not good, but I thought I would never feel like I received great things from Him; and that I was doomed to live a life of learning to be thankful and content with all the things that I considered second-rate.
If you find yourself going through something similar or want to avoid wandering in such a desert, I can offer you the directions that the psalmist gives: we must actively take time to meditate on the works of God in our lives. And we must remember that the LORD is not like us at all – He does not forget us, though we are forgetful; He does not forget our prayers, though we forget the words we hear from others.
While the psalmist thinks of God’s faithfulness and generosity to all of His people, we can counter doubts about His personal love for us by reflecting on God’s mighty work in our own lives. Are we no longer awed and glad that He sustains us breath by breath? Have we forgotten about the way that He has removed a former pain or struggle in our lives? Have we forgotten perhaps a purposelessness that He has overcome for us? Let’s think back to some mighty works that God has done in our lives so that we may have hearts that anticipate the work He is doing and will be doing.
As we take time to consider the works that God has done in our lives up until now, He will help us get into a mode of being thankful for all the things He has brought in our lives. Though we find ourselves dismayed by circumstances, He will place us on a firmer ground to trust in His loving generosity for now and in the future.
Prayer: Dear LORD, we confess that oftentimes we do not trust Your goodness; we doubt your generosity and we doubt Your love for us. Let Your truths speak more clearly and loudly than our hurts and discouragements. Give us again a heart of thankfulness and a heart of hope. Amen.
Bible Reading for Today: 2 Corinthians 8